'08 was an O-MESS.
Particularly one of the worst year to date. I went from being in a big pile of doodoo to falling into an even bigger whole of doodoo.
- Food became my best friend (when it's actually my worst enemy)
- I still like the guy who broke my heart (he actually hit me up the other day and asked if we could chill and my answer was.... I admit, I'm dumb)
- I had a chance to transfer to a photo school but I was too scare to actually go for it
- I claim and preach how much I'm a lover (when in reality I am a hater)
- I'm 21 and I feel like I'm 12 (not a good thing)
- I became a bad friend
- I fake a smile when I really just want to cry (everyone does that)
- I really have no reason to feel "down" when I'm blessed in so many ways (selfish)
- Everyday I'd say to myself "this day will be different", 3 seconds later I failed
- I have a dream to catch and I keep self-handicapping myself
- I have no sense of who I am anymore (lost)
- I lost complete faith in God (though I still rock my cross earrings)
Thank 08 for all the foolishness. I am not going to say anything about 09 instead just go with the flow. Hopefully I'll be sparkled with some happiness. (crosses fingers for a fairy godmother) Until then, I'll just keep trying to find the sun
